I’ve decided
that this is going to be a key question the next time I’m interviewing someone who
fancies a job as a qualitative researcher. Because I’ve run one or two groups
in my time and I know that my personal enjoyment is largely irrelevant. I also
know that even though running groups has been my main occupation for hundreds
of years I’m still not sure if I enjoy running them myself.
Yes, I enjoy
them if I’m in the middle of one, which feels like it’s going well and it’s one
in which everyone seems fully engaged and on track with the objectives. And yes,
I enjoy the feeling when a group has clearly gone well and I feel that the
client is going to be impressed with the end results.
But I don’t
enjoy the pre-group experience when you don’t know who is going to turn up or
indeed if anyone is going to turn up. And I don’t enjoy the worry around
whether I have a group’s objectives fully in my head and the stimulus material
all lined up and ready to roll. And I don’t enjoy the pressure around ensuring
that everyone in the group contributes fully, everything runs to time, I’ve
managed the whole process, making it seem like the job is easy and that anyone
could do it because I’ve made it looks so enjoyable they could probably do it
too and they would probably be very good at it…
Ay, there’s
the rub. And there’s the irony I’ve been faced with all my working life.
When groups go
well, they can look so easy and look such fun that even I can sometimes look
like I’m enjoying the process. But we’re talking swan on water here, my feet are
going like the quackers!
Because a group
can turn in a heart-beat; one minute they’re all there with you, you’re swimming for
England, together, in formation; next minute, they’re all looking a bit drowsy
and you’ve still got half an hour of the group to go.
And this is
another time when the enjoyment can be halted and the hard graft and commitment
really must kick in. You owe it to the client, you owe it to the participants,
you owe it to your professional self and to the project as a whole.
Turn that
around and post-group enjoyment might, just might, be your reward. But that won’t
guarantee that your next group will be any more enjoyable.
I can’t decide
if I’m becoming more envious of people who say they enjoy running groups or
whether I’m becoming more suspicious.
Because groups for
me are unpredictable and groups for me are really hard work.
And irony of
ironies, that’s why I have enjoyed running them over so many years.
But only when
they’re finished and I feel I’ve done my best.
And only when I’ve
come to terms with the fact that just as you’re at your most self-satisfied and
content, there will always be someone there to tell you how lucky you were that
the group was so engaged and so willing to contribute.
Cue that swan again...dying.
Cue that swan again...dying.
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